Quicksand....

Now a days every step forward I take is perceived as a step deeper into quicksand. I look ahead without hope in my eyes and this is what happens. "I gave it all up for nothing" I say to myself daily as if it has become my new mantra. I cant even look in that direction anymore and finding a new direction feels hopeless. With a child on your hip all you can do is crawl through and hope that someday someone throws you a rope or that you find a strong enough vine or tree root to pull yourself and the child on your hip out. Its one thing to be in a hole but even more worries to deal with when you are in quicksand.