I MISS YOU!

I recently told you how all the things you once told me came true and that I am proud of you for completing all you set out to. However I still wish I were her and that we could be. I never get to tell you how you are the light of my life and that no one will EVER compare to you. Most who have an idea of our story don't even know the half of it! I wish it never had to end truly I do.

When I think of you not only does a smile come over my face but I go deep in thought and it is as if the breath of life just entered my body for the very first time. You are the man of my dreams you always have been only when you were in my reality I could not move an inch to show you my deep love an affection for you.

You are marvelous to me and you are THE ONE man that can feed the appetite of my life in your own unique way. I love you and wish that I could have maintained any kind of relationship with you. I am sorry

The littest things make the biggest differences.

I have believed this to be true for a long time. So why is it that the person closest to me doesn't seem to understand or even try to understand my values, and where my passion lays? Why for so long have I only cared for others when will it be my turn? I must begin to love myself now for it is long overdue. Rediscovering where my true passion is because for to long I have worked myself into a frenzey worrying about helping others to reach their goals while they chose to sabbotage the path that I helped to create. Great to have my eyes wide open.

Heavy Heart

With all I've been through in life, the thing I can never hold onto but truly understand is love. My vision of love is beyond the reality of what love is... and yet I remain forever HOPEFUL!

Learning to Channel my Energy ...

It is not easy to stop an old habit, especially when you have WAY to much time on your hands. You know how the mine can take a millisecond to wander and you are right back where you don't want to be. Well I am trying new things and with that I have new ideas and my mind has something else to do.

What am I doing?

• Playing Wii Sports (great way to release built up aggression or tension in a positive physical manner)
• SingStar Vol. 2 - a GREAT way to practice dealing with my small fear of public anything (speaking, etc.)
• Blogging about a project I created for our daughter
  

Truth be told this is not easy there are still those moments that I think of my old bad habits but now I know there are ways to move forward and occupy my time wisely in ways that will benefit mine and my families future.

A Little of this and a Little of That:

This blog is about marrying young, learning lessons that hard way and reconditioning to become a better me. Yes there will be venting and sharing of happy times, truths about struggles with weight, balancing a family and dreams still to be achieved. Enjoy